The Devil’s Lettuce
It is our generation’s drug of choice. Don’t tell my rabbis, future employer, or the federal government, but I have been known to partake of the good ole Mary Jane at times (obviously only in legal states…🙃). I think that if we’re going to have an honest conversation then I have to be honest too.
Here’s what I know about cannabis:
- I know that I love cannabis.
- I know that I have lots of great memories while high.
- I know I love the social aspect of the drug.
- I know my ideas flow when I am high
- I know that when I feeling really connected to my inner being, I don’t want to smoke (or I want to smoke less).
- I know that I feel better overall when I’m not consuming.
- I know that I use weed to escape.
I know that I use weed to escape.
I don’t think I’m the only one. I know that when I don’t have the escape of a joint, I am forced to change my mental/emotion being on my own, through my own power. Anything that weed can do, I can do better, and I feel immensely powerful when I do.
When I change a negative mind state without the help of weed, I feel invincible.
When I use weed to change a negative mind state, I feel better, but tomorrow, I just want to do it again.
I know weed puts me in my head and actually takes me out of my heart.
What am I escaping?
My doubt, my fears, my limitations, my anxieties. The voices that say that I’m just not good enough. The voices that say happiness is just not in my future. The voices that keep trapped in bad loops. The part of myself that just wants to be loved and accepted so badly, yet knows that until I love and accept myself, it will never happen.
But, if you’ve read this blog, you understand that you can transcend all of these things with the power of manifesting, mindfulness, meditation, and consciousness work.
Where does that leave us?
I’m probably going to smoke again, so I can’t tell you not to. I do not know if it effects you in the same way it effects me, so I will say that for me, I will not forget that I use it to escape.
Sometimes I need to escape.
But I know that the more I do this work, the less I want to smoke. So I’m not going to eliminate weed. I’m going to do the work and watch as it falls away.
How Can You “Use” Weed?
The most powerful use of weed is to feel the inclination to smoke and to tap into that desire and see what feeling it’s requesting…and then GIVE YOURSELF THAT FEELING.
Use weed as a portal to connect to your inner being. As Ram Das said (he wasn’t speaking specifically about weed, but about any negativity), “use it to go to God.”